Hi readers , I am back , today is blogging about my own slightly expression , a certain kind of sadness . A kind of sadness may involve your emotion , neither your face apperance nor body language , I learned somethings from tutorial class last time , the lecture said you cannot hide your emotion even it is sad, grief , upset , happy , disappointed or even more . Which mean those emotions will appear it automatically , apparently , you couldn't hold it well :( . Well , I am a girl who likes to smile constantly and cheer people up , however,  I unlikely to make myself out of mood or think negatively , but once....

I have no idea the things getting from bad to worst , things changed , people changed and world changed . As the saying goes , no expectation , no disappointment . One of my question is how we can live without expectation? I still believe that a strong desire and belief could be a miracle . so how do you think ? well , things always make us grow up . It's time to growing up. As the stage to be mature , you realize that nothing is important unless yourself . No matter the things going up and down , the first things you must take note is care yourself and listen yourself . Why it is important ? The crucial thing is you will not loss yourself and you know what is your need the most more clear. They will not even care about you because of they are not you , they are strongly resist to communication with you because of they don't even give a shit to you. Although it has gone through three months , the worst things make that be a habit to me. You will realize that there is prove that everything . Those attitude , emotion and heart . PROVE IT . So I told myself stop cheating myself , time to growing up , you are a nineteen years old girl ! already gone . past is past . never try to ruminating the past memories that can lead to depression , yes perhaps it is a happiness moment but it is past. JUST LET ME GO , when I was ruminating enough I will let myself go . I think you too.someone is gonna go , I want you to know , You couldn't love me better , but i want you to move on , so i'm already gone . 

I am feeling a certain kind of sadness ..

She's got a smile on her face and a fuck your attitude , because from this day on, she's living for herself .